The last 2 months...

As I read my last post, it still brings tears to my eyes. The last few months have been painful and sad. So much has happened in two months with my family.... My whole world feels turned upside down, as if I am walking on my hands. I stepped down at my job, and just work 2 days a weeks which has been a great adjustment financially and emotionally. I did not realize how much identity I had in my job, it really was the best choice and has given me more time to find identity in being a wife and a mother again. We also have stepped away from Kids ministry at church, this has been the hardest change, because I feel as if I have failed. I have never quit anything, In all my years with the Lord I have never not been "doing something" at church. I feel completely isolated but the truth in that is that I have done it to myself, and now feel like I am in a corner that I can not get out of. Jumping back into my life or what was my life feels to hard, running feels easier. Everything and everyone around me has moved forward and I still feel stuck... I am reading the Book of Luke trying my hardest to press into the Lord, along with a book on the Life of Jesus, and it has been refreshing to think of Jesus as a man who saw the pain in this world, daily I am learning to walk with the Lord more, that His grace in enough, that there is nothing I can do to walk out of His Love for me. So, here are some pictures of both the girls first days of school, and October! My children have smiles and laughter that sustain the broken heart... In Grace, Julie