Elisha Lost Her first tooth....

Elisha Lost her first tooth. My baby is getting so big!!!!

The Perfect Christmas TREE.....

So, we have started a new tradition the last few years and that it to get the family together, on this side of the bridge and get a u-cut Christmas tree. We found a really cute place this year and had a blast finding trees. WE usually get a noble, and I love it but this year Leroy picked a very special tree, and it was also very expensive(more expensive then even my moms 12ft noble-we had a great laugh with this), but once we got it home and decorated- it is near perfect. It almost looks fake it is so perfect. It smells so nice and the girls and I had a blast decorating it. So, enjoy the tree farm pictures....

Annual Ginger Bread House

The girls and I did our Gingerbread House the other day. They work so well together, and have alot of fun together. Thank the Lord for Sisters!!!! Let the Holiday season begin, I have sent this years "thankful letter" that we sent out for thanksgiving this year. Christmas cards are my one of my favorite things to do, and this year it seemed more appropriate to do something a little different, so enjoy. Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

The last 2 months...

As I read my last post, it still brings tears to my eyes. The last few months have been painful and sad. So much has happened in two months with my family.... My whole world feels turned upside down, as if I am walking on my hands. I stepped down at my job, and just work 2 days a weeks which has been a great adjustment financially and emotionally. I did not realize how much identity I had in my job, it really was the best choice and has given me more time to find identity in being a wife and a mother again. We also have stepped away from Kids ministry at church, this has been the hardest change, because I feel as if I have failed. I have never quit anything, In all my years with the Lord I have never not been "doing something" at church. I feel completely isolated but the truth in that is that I have done it to myself, and now feel like I am in a corner that I can not get out of. Jumping back into my life or what was my life feels to hard, running feels easier. Everything and everyone around me has moved forward and I still feel stuck... I am reading the Book of Luke trying my hardest to press into the Lord, along with a book on the Life of Jesus, and it has been refreshing to think of Jesus as a man who saw the pain in this world, daily I am learning to walk with the Lord more, that His grace in enough, that there is nothing I can do to walk out of His Love for me. So, here are some pictures of both the girls first days of school, and October! My children have smiles and laughter that sustain the broken heart... In Grace, Julie

Losing JOY....

So, this is really just a way for me to get my thoughts together. The last week has been one of great difficulty, and it seem that it is easier for me to BLOG or facebook so that I don't actually have to engage people. Normally I run to people, but this week I have wanted nothing to do with people. I have experienced a miscarriage this last week and my heart seems to be broken. I feel as if I have lost JOY, empty and sad. I know that these things happen everyday and yet it still sucks. I had a bladder/kidney infection along with the miscarriage so it was really the perfect storm, a little bit of everything. Today is the first day that physically I feel well enough to get out of bed, but I don't really want to get out of bed, but I do anyway. Today is also the first day that my head feels clear enough to deal with my real feelings-whatever they are. Have I really lost my JOY- no because I can look outside this moment and see all that I have to be thankful for...that is the ironic thing about grief that if we are grieving it has nothing to do with the "blessings." Grief and pain are OK and often necessary in healing. For the few weeks that I was pregnant with my third child, I was so full of JOY and excitement, it seemed as if it was the perfect time for our family. The Girls had been praying for a new baby and the Lord was faithful to answer their prayers, I think back now and it seemed to perfect. When Leroy told them what had happened, he reminded them that the Lord had answered their prayers and that this was just not the right time but they still could have faith for the things unseen. The girls have been so amazing and tender with me, grace has been the only thing that covered the really sad moments for me, Elisha has such great faith, it really cuts to the heart, she see and understands things of the Lord that I will never. Johanna has said lots of random "Mom- I just love yous" and talks so confidently of the future. So again I am at a place when I can reject the JOY OF THE LORD, or I can refocus. I am not really sure what this looks like, or how I will mend, but what I am choosing to do today is reclaim JOY, and Let the Lord heal my heart and rest in his grace, cry and grieve....

Summer Time

OK, summer has gone by way to fast!!!! We have had lots of fun, we spent a week in Canada with our cousins. We stayed on Hornby island and enjoyed being in the water during the heat wave a few weeks ago. We spend some time with my friend April and her boyfriend at the Summit lake house, where we discovered that Elisha has a very adventurous side, she was in the water the whole time swimming, jumping off the dock, sliding down the trampoline slide into the water and going on the seadoo when ever she could. I will post some pictures soon of all those events. Elisha had her first sleepover at our house with her friend Rachel, they had a blast and where actually asleep by 9:30-WOW. We are so blessed to have some neat friends so close by. Another fun thing that the girls have done this summer was camping/hiking with Leroy. Yes, my wonderfully brave husband went on a camping trip just him and the girls. They went to Mr. Rainer and had a blast, I was so sad that I missed out- I had to work:( So, enjoy the pictures of their camping trip.

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This has been a great adventure for me and I am loving it....

Summer Time

So, summer is offically here!!! This is our first full week of No School and having Elisha home and we are LOVING it! Today the girl and I walked 3 miles. Elisha rode her Bike and I pushed Johanna on her trike- it has a neat handle bar for the parents. Elisha did awesome and if I can figure out how to upload pictures from my cell phone, I have a cute one of the 2 of them. Then after a relaxing afternoon we had a fashion show in the front yard. So enjoy the fashion show.